nixgint's piece of sky

Been a while since i last came over here.
Holidays have ended, it was a horrible one because i didn't really get a break before starting school.
And the job, well, it's kinda slack la, but then the sian fact remains that i have to give half of my pay to Jie.
Cox i owe her money. what to do.

nixgint has been a happier person, as compared to the previous two posts.
life is still just as tiring as ever, with OTC, ANCO, Corps, School, Fun, Fandom, Outings to deal with. LOL.
But i am loving life like that, whereby there is really time to have interesting and fun stuff.
Sorry to say so but then, i kinda felt that many more people are treating me better than my corps people.
But then again, well, corps people should be like family, the ones who whacks you the hardest, but then one who's the most touched for you, most worried for you, most concerned about you.
But OTC people are wonderful people. despite questioning my self-worth in the committee many many times,
OTC folks are, hmmm, maybe cox we are all more sensitive to things than others, so they are quick to notice when i am not alright.
haha. but it's fun. =)
Zone side, well, more of an as usual kinda thing. haha. but then i am looking forward to working with the kids. the 10 kids. haha~

and i am really grateful for the happy times from family. especially Jie and cousins.
somehow or rather, when i dun think so much, when i am not so sensitive, i feel so sayanged. =)

mehh, it's may, and sensitive nixgint is crawling out.
albeit kinda less than last time.
the idea of knowing a few OTC folks meeting Jie on vesak day, fully unaware of my birthday.
the idea of the usual "ting ting has better presents than me".
it's just as usual la, because of how near our birthdays are. or to be specific, same lunar birthday. haha!
and i guess, also because of the same people that we know, those who remember hers and doesn't know mine.
wells, it's normal, it's always like that since young. and most importantly, i knew them better through her.
So such things, nixgint grew up already. able to know why certain things happen the way it did.
and then again, presents etc, it doesn't really matter, does it?
what matters is how i spent that day, how i feel, whether i feel sayanged or not.
in this area, i think i made improvements. really.
the jealousy in me is no longer strong. which is a good thing.

though life isn't going easy on me, if i look on the brighter side, i am still a happy kid.
my piece of sky is one that is under the bright sunlight.
it is warm and beautifully blue, yet slightly shaded and dark, because of the light.
but it still lights up and brightens the day like no other.
i am emotionally satisfied with life now. really. =)